This Weekend

This weekend, we remembered all that was my mother’s life. With family and friends from all chapters of her story here on earth, it was a somber weekend of memories and goodbyes, but also a chance to re-connect with so many wonderful friends and family long not seen. It was a weekend that truly celebrated all that my Mom was to so many people…

I so badly want to write some eloquent words that capture all that Mom meant to me, as well as all the emotions I am feeling in this moment in my life – to create a time capsule of sorts that I can look back on and remember this time. Because while sad and painful, there have also been some lovely moments and huge life lessons learned.

But for me, right now, grief has taken hold in the form of exhaustion, as well as a yearning for some sort of normalcy and routine at the conclusion of a long, difficult and painful four weeks. I’m told that the grief will come on in unexpected ways and at unexpected moments. I will wait for those moments to come rather than force the words to flow right here and right now.

What I can do is leave you with two things for now. The first, is a huge thank you to all of you, my readers, who sent along prayers, well-wishes and some of the loveliest emails I have ever received. Knowing that so many people cared, both people we knew as well as complete strangers, brought immense comfort to me and my family.

Second, I have shared here on the blog before what an amazing crafts-woman my mother was and also how she was a huge source of inspiration to me in my own crafty pursuits. You can read my tribute I wrote for her last Mother’s Day HERE. Last weekend, during the visitation, we displayed a sampling of Mom’s many creations. I modified that blog post into sign that we could display above the tables.

More than ever, we treasure all that Mom has made for us. And also more than ever, I understand the value of working with ones hands and making homemade items that can be held, cherished, and passed-down long after we are gone form this earth.  Crafting is not just a way to keep ourselves busy, it’s a way to leave part of who we are behind for those who love us.

I have some putting-back-together of life to do in the coming days, but I hope to get back into the swing of regular projects and postings here soon. I have lots of ideas and projects for the coming months, and I will continue to share it all with you here. As an avid reader and supporter of my blog, Mom wouldn’t have it any other way.

Megan

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12 Responses to This Weekend

  1. What beautiful words, Megan. My heart is heavy for you during this grieving time in your life, but also very happy that you've had such an inspiring role model that you can call your mother. This is all how we would like to be remembered; that we did so much for our family and were the best mother we could be. She is smiling down on all of you right now because she knows she raised some pretty amazing children. You will continue her legacy to your fullest potential. And thats the best way to honor someone every single day. I will be here for you during the tough days that have yet to come.

  2. I so understand your feeling of yearning for normalcy and routine. My Aunt died in December (she was hit by a car). Like you said the grief comes and goes and the desire for normalcy and routine have been there. It has been a struggle to get it back and to feel 'caught up.' Give yourself time and grace.
    I will be thinking of you and your family. I know this is a very hard time.
    KC

  3. It is difficult to verbalize how special Judy was to me and to all my fellow quilters in Playgroup and the Fairfax chapter of Quilters Unlimited. She was generous with her knowledge of knitting and quilting and would always manage to come with just the right fabric piece for my/our project which she found in that infamous basement. I remember when we were putting together Easter baskets for disadvantaged and underprivileged children, Playgroup brought tons of gifts and candies for the baskets and when it was obvious we didn't have enough containers Judy disappeared for awhile and came back with lots of baskets to fill. Judy and I shared a special bond of having toddler grandchildren and always enjoyed sharing notes and pictures. Judy was proud of all her family and enjoyed sharing her stories of each and every one. She will be forever missed by me and I hope she is an angel sitting on my shoulder giving me guidance.

  4. Hi Megan. I've followed your blog for a while. I'm so sorry for your loss. I felt as though I was reading a post I could have written. I lost my Mom in September. So many of the things you said about your Mom I could have said of mine. Just keep remembering the wonderful things about your Mom.

  5. I have enjoyed reading your blog for the past few months. This post is a beautiful tribute to your mother. I am so sorry for your loss and I know how it feels to lose someone close to you. My Grandma passed away almost two weeks ago, just a few days before I saw this post, and it's just so hard knowing that she's really gone. To me it seems harder because I know my Grandma wanted to live and fought for that for so many long weeks, but had a disease she couldn't overcome. I will be thinking and praying for you and your family through this difficult time!

  6. I'm sorry for your loss, I lost my mother last May after a 5 month battle with brain cancer and I know how difficult it is. I still cannot believe she is gone sometimes, you are in my thoughts and prayers!

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